When you are depressed, its really hard to imagine how a not-depressed life is.
To imagine how it feels like not to wake up every day wishing the world will end.
As much as I want to get out of this darkness, I didnt really know what it feels like to be in the light.
I has an idea of how it might feel like.
I had past memories of those times.
But when you have been depressed for just so long, you just forget how a normal life is.
I was so fixated on getting out of this depression, that it became all I thought about.
I didnt think about that good life.
I only thought about depression and how to get rid of it.
Joy, peace, light was not even present in my imaginary life.