I am not scared of being lonely “now.”
I am scared of being lonely “forever.”
I mistakenly interpreted that “lonely now” means “lonely forever.”
But this is a lie.
I have had my not lonely times.
Loneliness like emotional discomfort, will pass eventually.
So if I just let it pass, let that loneliness pass, I will be okay.
When I am lonely, I feel very scared and miserable.
I’ve always thought, this was just because we need people in our lives.
But recently, I have come to realize that I am miserable and scared not because of now.
I am scared that I will be lonely forever.
This is what terrifies me.
Lonely = no one wants me = I am worthless
I am completely fine being alone the day before or after meeting up with friends.
Because these times, I know that I am not “not wanted.”
So even if I feel “not wanted”, I know that it is just a lie that will pass if I don’t linger on it.