My parents are emotionally stable and loving people.
So I always had a hard time understanding why I struggle with mental illness,
because professionals tend to say that there is at least some parental effects,
That has to do with things like not feeling loved enough.
Marie Forleo’s podcast with Tony Robbins really helped me to see a side of this in me.
Q. Whose love did I crave the most growing I own? Mom or dad
Q: What did I need to be for my dad?
A: put together, organized, simple, sporty, able to sit still, patient, all-around, not fat, not binge, don’t obsess about food, calm
Basically, I needed to be a simple, small, and not have any problems with anything girl.
These were required to be precious.
By default I wasn’t.
Q: What is something I could not be?
A: sad, mad, moody, watch tv and eat chips, don’t exercise, emotional, dramatic, shy, binge, fat, complicated
I was not allowed to be complicated and big and emotional.
But I am all of this.
So I believe that I am not precious.
I can see that my dad and mom loved me whatsoever, but this is what I believed.